Oh, I give up!
I've been trying to write a song to play on the Midsummer Festival -- it's almost like a letter to the Mystery Knight! He'll be there for the tourney, and so logically, he'll also be there for the celebration afterwards, once he has time to clean up and hide his identity from the piercing eyes of us admirers. And I thought, what better way to talk to him than to perform something truly moving?
But everything comes out awful! The lyrics are fine, but I can't get the music right, and I don't care what anyone says, the music is a thousand times more important! My mother was write about that at l
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Did I just say that!?
-- whatever!
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I just can't make it work. I've been so frustrated about everything lately, and I just keep thinking about -- about how some people just seem to pull away from you the closer you try and get to them and eventually it doesn't seem worth it so you throw down an ultimatum and then they still don't seem to care so what does it matter, anyway? I should be spending my time on someone who is sure to never disappoint me ... like the Mystery Knight!
You'd think having all that emotion would help me create!
Ooh. I could tuck lyrics into his saddlebags again, like I did last time, but that's got to be getting old for him. It's not as if he's ever responded! I need to reach out to him! Do something for him! Find some way to demonstrate the way that I feel in a way that everyone can see and nobody can --
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-- OH MY GOSH!